LAzy to Update

I'm damn lazy to update my blog already
Don't like to expose everything to the world
Maybe i'll update again when i feel that i want to
But it will be after decades.
^^

我們沒有在一起

This song quite nice. I like it.

你一直說的那個公園已經拆了
還記得盪著鞦韆日子就飛起來
漫漫的下午陽光都在臉上撒野
你那傻氣 我真是想念

那時候小小的你還沒學會嘆氣
誰又會想到他們現在喊我女王
你哈哈笑的樣子倒是一點沒變
時間走了 誰還在等呢

這杯咖啡忘了加糖
真不是我那麼傷感
世界太複雜 你說單純很難 我當然都明白

可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的夢從來不大
我們沒有在一起至少還像情侶一樣
我痛的瘋的傷的在你面前哭得最慘

我知道你也不能帶我回到那個地方
你說你現在很好而且喜歡回憶很長
我們沒有在一起至少還像家人一樣
總是遠遠關心遠遠分享

那條路走呀走呀走呀總要回家
兩隻手握著晃呀晃呀捨不得放
你不知道吧後來後來我都在想
跟你走吧 管它去哪呀

我們沒有在一起至少還像朋友一樣

你遠遠的關心其實更長

S.A.D

Why would I have to face all the problems again again and again
I'm alwiz being very indecisive.
Not only other people can't stand me, i cannot stand myself either.
Friends care about me, they know what's good for me. But I don't know.
Now, I'm hurt. And others feel hurt too.
I will feel sorry for my family and friends and myself if I continue doing it.
True love is only meant for two persons, not three.
I have to do this for myself.
I don't want to disappoint my friends and family that truly care about me.
I'm sorry.

I have never had this shit feelings before.
It's like I want it and it's there for me but I cannot have it.
It sucks till the max.
I'M VERY VERY SAD.

=(

I'm not feeling good.
I feel uncertainty and insecurity and also guilty
I feel sad for someone. Because i know the feelings very well.
I have no confidence for myself
I will quit if i could
Anyone can teach me what to do?
No one can help. I'm the only one that can decide on my future.
Sad.Confused.
Because my feelings is controlling on me.
And i shouldn't do things with my feelings only.
It's gonna hurt at the end.

刘佩婗， 不要！

当全世界都叫你不要时，你却偏偏要
当你发觉你自己也知道那后果时，你却还为自己找错下去的理由
当你决定果断地把它遗忘时，却偏偏放不下
以为我不在乎，我好像更在乎
我或许只是随便应酬，可到后来却有一丝怀念
不知道自己想什么，也不知道在做什么
虽然有自我控制，心却不小心被人操控
遗忘，真难。

乱

只能用一个字形容现在的我 - 乱
思想乱，做的东西也很乱
我不知道我要怎么样
也不知道我想什么
算了，我什么都不管了
我觉得应该怎样做就怎样做
压抑自己的情感太久了
好像委屈自己太久了
我不需要为人家想那么多的
为自己想就好了
谢谢我的朋友们
我知道你们对我很好
我真的知道
我希望我不会让你们失望

天真

我变了吗？
我想这几个月我真的变了许多
以前我觉得好大的一件事情，如今对我而言只不过是一些芝麻绿豆的小事
人大了好像真的不一样了
少了以前那傻得很开心的天真

那天和Winzz喝茶，他说，世界上并没有好人
每个人都是坏的，都是自私的
我想他讲的有点对
长大了，看透了好多事情。
学会了好多人情世故
有时候，不是说你要这样做就这样做，要说就说
许多事情都得三思而后行

如果你问我
：‘你比较喜欢多姿多彩的生活还是那傻得很天真的生活’
我的答案肯定是后者
前者虽然让你学会享受生活，让你见识到许多东西
可它永远也比不上后者
好久都没有笨笨的，什么都不用想过着那无忧无虑的生活了

我并不是说现在很不开心
只不过，我怀念以前的心境
以前朋友之间没有尔虞我诈，大家思想简单直率
和任何一个朋友都相处得好舒服

可能这就叫作人生必经过程吧
人生有好多转折点
我想我正踏入‘成熟’阶段
虽然很不舍得告别幼稚的我
却也不太记得以前那傻傻笨笨的我是怎么样的了


过去让它过去
我只盼望明天会更好

=)

These days i have been hanging out with Monash friends a lot
Not to forget my Seiye Kahyan, The stupid worm and also Sheareen, Joanne and Shuwen.
My dearie Wing had left for Sydney =(
I feel it's good to separate us like that
So that we would realize how good friends we both are and that our friendship will never changed even though we're few thousand miles away from each other
( We still texting each other anw =p )

I'm quite happy with my life recently =) It's so peaceful with my new friends
Just that someone made me sad again =(...
Why ar?
I know I'm nothing for you but please stop doing that to me
I'm not a player!
Don't even know why i care so much bout you. Sigh
I'm thinking too much. Arrghh

Okay i know you ppl out there don't get what I'm trying to say
Just ignore me.

I should end the post with this random picture


I Love this picture


**************************************************

And for the one who loves to back stab me a lot
You go ahead and do it
I'm not gonna give you a damn
I'm very disappointed for you and you're not my friend anymore.
Don't ask me who i'm talking about
Because you know it yourself who you are.

This is cool

It's gonna be mengada, but but but

See this >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

I didn't use any software to do this, no photoshop or whatsoever software
This is Siang Lin and I
I didn't know until Leeyien told me she saw my face in this magazine >>>>>>

Wookay, i know you might think, what's so big deal?
And i know it was because of Siang Lin's 'Japanese look' therefore they put the picture in magazine...
Haha forgive me for being so kampung
And STUPID


I spent Rm 7.50 for this car magazine just because of the small little photo. Lol

*Bro was surprised why the sister treat him soo good suddenly bought him this Car magazine* keke

Btw, I earned rm260 yesterday. Wakakaka
But i worked hard for that okay! =)
Tiring promoter job.

And this is the heart shape tang yuen i made after 'tang yuen festival' =)


Okok, enuff of 'mengada-ing'
Have a nice day =)

Christmas Eve & NYE

Lazy to talk too much..

Pictures will tell everything =)

NEW YEAR EVE....

Korean BBQ

Korean restaurant (the girls)

Our age *oh no v're old*

Kim Seng and the birthday girl (Catherine)

Solaris

Sooo many ppl

Drinking (I was drinking water)

Birthday girl


Camwhoring in the toilet


Fireworks =)
Laughter

Pretty girls =)

CHRISTMAS EVE....

Ah Yat Bao Yu Restaurant

M&P

S&P

Yvonne and MPSJ

Ar Yat Bao Yu

Opera

M went missing

Sc & I

Lao Hu, Sc & I

Siang Lin & I

All drunk

Btw, i saw this at my dearie Wing wing blog and I feel it's really meaningful and it talks about me i think. She's a good writer, how i wish i can be like her.

“Ever felt like you're running a never-ending marathon?
And yet you keep running along only because you don't know the way back -back to who you used to be?”

Can you feel what i feel ?

Last Post of The Year

Hey my friends, I'm gonna do something that most of the blogger would do

It's the end of the year already =(
How fast right?
2009 is like a roller-coaster year for me
It's not that i have many ups and downs this year but time passed too fast until it feels like a ride on roller-coaster.
Like a blink of an eye
Although nothing special really happened this year but i should be glad that nothing bad happened to me =)
I think you are bored of what i have been crapping again...
So let the pictures do the talking

Family trip

PD trip

Birthdays

Parties

Jie Mei Men


The 5 of us

Monash Gang

I should stop this

Outings outings and outings

Last year NYE..
Hopefully it will be nice this year =)
But I'm celebrating with different people this year =(
My new year wish is very simple : Just wanna be Happy Always =)
Everything bad happened in 2009 stays in 2009
2010 is a new beginning and a better year
Happy New Year all

♥

一秒也好

I like this song so so so much =)
I can listen to the song over and over again
And she's pretty =)




一秒也好

我关上了门 最后一次听你说我们
熟悉变陌生 把我往记忆里扔
我应该习惯你离去的眼神
才能让失去你变得更完整

窗外的街灯 还在努力掩饰着早晨
我的叹息成全了整夜的苦闷
我该努力习惯这样的气氛
才发现 失去了爱不用再等

我知道 我的一切你已不想要
继续在乎只会让你想逃
我不相信这全是种煎熬
原来离去是那么难预料

早已看穿没有我想要的好
我的等待换不到你拥抱
只好让回忆短暂的炫耀
原来任性对彼此都不好

清晨的街灯 翻开了城市中的心门
我的等待成全了整夜的苦闷
我努力在你的回忆里狂奔
才了解 失去了爱不用再等

我知道 我的一切你已不想要
继续在乎只会让你想逃
我不相信这全是种煎熬
原来离去是那么难预料

早已看穿没有我想要的好
我的等待换不到你拥抱
只好让回忆短暂的炫耀
原来任性对彼此都不好

多想再一次紧紧的拥抱
就算给我一秒也好
一秒可以给多少
我都想要

我知道 我的一切你已不想要
继续在乎只会让你想逃
我不相信这全是种煎熬
原来爱你是那么难预料

早已看穿没有我想要的好
我的等待换不到你拥抱
只好让回忆短暂的炫耀
原来任性对彼此都不好

让回忆继续反覆炫耀

原来失去对彼此都不好

Gemini

This is so true about me

Just ignore it if you think it's too long to read
Or you might think it's some rubbish
But if you wanna know about me, this is me >>

注意紫色和红色的字
红色= 形容得我很贴切
紫色= 大部分时间的我是这样的





双子座(Gemini)

有很多的朋友，可是'看起来朋友很多，可是知心的没有几个' 这句话很深刻的形容了双子。
双子很能说话，他跟别人可以天南地北的聊，可以聊得很八卦，也会聊一些很严肃的话题。
双子可以跟你聊很多东西，可是注意了，他都只是跟你聊一些不关自己的 事。
随便他跟你说些什么，可是跟自己有关的都只是些皮毛而已。
比如，今天又有某个明星怎样怎样了；隔壁班有多少美女帅哥的。 关于自己的事，他几乎是不说 的，就算是说，也是说一些关于自己无关痛痒的事。
当你想更进一步的了解双子，他会很自然的把话题给扯开。
对于自信的双子来说，他又同时很没有安全感，这是双子特有的矛盾。
他喜欢把自己重重包围住，不让自己暴露。
对于双子来说，如果在一个还不了解的人面前把自己暴露了，就等于让别人抓住了自己的把柄。
当双子感到独孤悲伤时，只会一个人躲在房间里哭，或者一个人郁闷着。
双子也很怕被伤害，很多时候宁愿自己承受一切，也不愿别人抓住自己的把柄。
所以久而久之也就养成了习惯。 双子基本上也是个很痛苦的人。
表面上总是很有活力，很快乐的样子，可是没人的时候他又总是很忧伤。
双子总会被一种莫名的悲伤笼罩，但他不会让别人发现的。
他怕被伤害，也怕被别人抛弃，只能自己硬挺着一切。
所以双子很神经质，精神脆弱，容易人格分裂，因为承受了太多的东西。
双子对很多的东西都在乎得要命，可是表面上就是看起来什么都不在乎。
双子并不是故意要掩饰自己，上面说了，这只是一种习惯 了，可是在外人看来他就成了虚伪的人。 双 子这一生，似乎必须被感情牵伴，跟爱情纠缠一世。
很多人说双子并不花心，只是博爱，所以才会有那么好的人缘。
双子最大的悲 哀在于有两个人的思想，却只有一个人的身体，
双子有爱自己所爱的人的权利，也有保护彼此所爱的人的义务，
双子只剩下一个时，爱也就只剩下义务了。
花心的极端就是痴心的可怕。
其实双子是最平和的 星座，如果可以不发生冲突，都会尽量避免。
双子也很少跟别人吵架，他讨厌吵架，
如果是因为一些生活琐碎小事吵架，那么双子就在吵完的那一刻就把这件事给忘 了；
要双子真的跟你翻脸，除非是你的所作所为或所说的话实在让双子不能忍受，这时他会很鄙视得看你一眼，然后头也不回地走掉，甚至会不给你留面子地离开。
这时 你一辈子也别想再和他和好了，就算有的双子碍于面子和你再成为朋友，但是他们已经对你鄙视到了极点，只不过维持着这一层不得不维持的'朋友'关系
其实，很 大一部分双子，对待感情是非常专一的，
之所以给人留下花心的美名，是因为很少有人能够让略带童心的双子动真感情，
不是双子铁石心肠，而是双子个性里面天生 有一些忧郁，一些潜在的不自信，只是双子隐藏的深入，
可是一旦让双子动了真感情，那么恭喜你了，双子的天真，率直，外加表达能力丰富，一定能让你获得很多 快乐。
每个双子都有一个故事隐藏在心里，多数是不堪回首的往事，
双子是个念旧或者说是喜欢沉浸在回忆中的星座，
他（她）的这个故事通常都是因情所困，动 了感情而 被伤害了的双子是脆弱的，也是坚强的，
他（她）可以很快的振作起来，可以当什么事都没有发生，这些都是双子演给世人看的罢了，
等到夜深人静的时候，双子内 心的伤痛随着血液渗透到全身，
他（她）可以一整夜的去回忆之前的点点滴滴，可以一整夜的沉浸在痛苦之中，
可以一整夜坐在那里发呆，
但是，一旦天亮了，要出 去见人了，双子马上就从痛苦中抽身而走，你看到的肯定是一个神采奕奕的双子，
这就是双子。
拥有双重性格的双子，一个在世人面前乐天，快乐， 在孤独夜晚独自 伤悲的双子。
双子的爱是最永恒的，可以付出一切，有人说我们花心，那时我们没有真正的爱，
当双子爱上一个人的时候是痛苦的，因为我们太敏感。
假如双子爱上了一个不爱自 己的人，那莫我相信他永远都不会再爱了，
当爱给过了一个人，他再也没有能力再付出了，
其实太多的人都不懂我们，其实连我们自己都不懂自己，
我们很会伪装， 很会说谎，但我们最细腻，对感情最敏感，
双子的爱与悲伤，谁又真的了解？

MPSJ

M = Michelle Tan
P = Pui Yee (me)
S = Sum Yee
J = Jae Lee

Lol, I'm too free already and i tot of this short-forms for my darlings
I just noticed that my blog is all about outings which basically is fulled of rubbish
I better write something meaningful here
My M.S.J are reading it *oh no*
I should name ourselves as Gossip Queens
Wherever the four of us go, there's always noises
We never stayed in a restaurant for less than 2 hours before
We have endless topics although we just got to know each other (probably less than one year)
I guess this is what we called the 'click' between friends =)

To MSJ : I never spread our secrets here, believe me larr =)

Why suddenly i feel myself so tired? I'm tired of sleepless nights and alcohols
My life seems happening but I'm not really that happy for it i guess =(

Girls talk =)

Hey, i just edited my blog, scroll down and see pictures =)
Am still waiting for Jj's birthday celebration pictures

Today i went to Wing's house to have catching up session with her
We spent whole afternoon just to talk talk talk
It's been more than half a year i didn't get to talk to her so closely
It feels so good to talk to my dear
And you, my Wingie (lol just created a name for you) you know every time when i feel like sharing my secrets with someone, you are alwiz the one i think of =) since form one
More than seven years friendship will never be affected by distance, right?
Our friendship will never changed

And the other day, i went to have talk with Kahyan too =)
And i'm looking forward for 'girls talk' with Rachel- my emo partner who i think she's not emo ing anymore lol

Jj's birthday

Yesterday was Chinyin Jj's birthday =)

She invited MengYan, HuiTing, SiewLin + admirer, WaiHong, AlexLee, Chloe, LeeYien, ShuYi and I to have dinner at Magnificent Fish & Chips nearby Jalan Alor
The environment was not bad (got many 'ang mor')



It's been so long i didn't meet up with Meng Yan, she's just backed from Aussie
She reminds me of a story haha :~~
Few years ago, I bluffed Meng Yan that my dad is the owner of Naza World and she really believed me
One day, i received her call and she said that she's at NazaWorld and her dad wanted to buy a car
She was actually asking me if i can ask my dad to give her some discount or something like that
I remember that time i was taking a nap when she called
I stunned there and i felt so guilty
I didn't know that she actually believed my joke which no one would believe
So then i apologized but i felt so shameful =(
-end of story-

After dinner, everyone went to Phuture for next round
It took us so long to get in because all of us are underage
Phuture was so so but it was my first time there...
After awhile in Phuture, I joined Michelle and Ernie and his friends at Zouk
Zouk was so packed
Although i just got to know Ernie's friends but we had a great time together =)
I felt so tired that night
I was lucky that my parents didn't scold me for coming back late =)
When i reached home at 3 a.m, Mum and brothers and sister were chit-chatting (siao family)
They were talking about their love life
Nowadays the children tsk tsk tsk
So young already Pak Toh and fighting for bfs or gfs?
I think i'm old and outdated already =(

Hong Kong Movie

Hello..

Haha just wanna introduce a Hong Kong movie to you again
I'm a little too free =)
You can watch it with PPS =)
But i dun like the ending =(

I should stay at home

Saturday :
Bbq party at Marc's house, his house quite big.
At first i thought there'll be a lot of people that i dunno there, luckily they only invite a small group of friends and i know almost all of them.
It was Marshella's farewell, she's going to China to learn Chinese :S
I was like : ' learn from me la!! lol!!'.
We had Kimberly's bbq chicken and Marshella's Indon-style Bananas =)
And as usual there are DSLR and Poker set.
Every where i go also got DSLR -so heng lor? I wonder if i could have one?
But i feel very lazy to carry it everywhere lorr, i would rather you buy me something else



Sunday:
It was family day =) haha i 'con' a lot of stuff from mum - heels, eyeliner, eye brow pencil
I know i'm bad but i was HAPPY ^^

Monday:
I woke up at 4.30 p.m lol
My plan was supposed to be going for gym and swimming with Sumyee, JaeLee and Michelle but then our plan canceled cos Michelle is sicked
Since morning i received so many msges *blur blur * and i replied it in my dreams..
Shuyi even asked me out for jogging, i was a bit lazy
At night, i went Pasar Malam at SS2 with the gang - Sumyee, JaeLee, Ernie, MengTerng, Catherine, ShinYi, KimSeng, John
We ate soooo many food *FAT!!*
Then went yamcha at Yippie Cup and we had some games ^^
They wanted to go for next round for food *omg*
Luckily i said i needa go home
I needa start on my diet plan again!! =(

Some pictures i took at Yippie Cup:~~




Tmr i'm going out again....