My girl friends

Sometimes I just feel I'm so lucky to have so many girl friends

Because people always claim that girls cannot really stay too close to each other or else there will be many conflicts between them..
I'm glad that I'm still living peacefully with my babes <3
Although some of them are staying at another country, we can still chat and gossip for hours a day ^^

It's December already

I'm just backed from a yum cha session with the usual gang
We were talking about some working stuff and adult stuff
Suddenly I feel like ' Hey I have to be more matured already'
I used to always say' I feel like I'm more grown up day by day'

But at this time, the end of the year again..I think I shouldn't say this
Instead I should start planning for my future and start doing something
Not just by sitting there and say 'Yeah, I feel I'm grown up' but continue doing stupid things
Such as wasting time on too much entertainment

Yea, I really do admit that I have too much entertainment
Ever since the beginning of 2009, and now the end of 2010..
I have too much parties, outings, trips, 'chilling session'.......
It's time to spend some time thinking of how to earn money?
Thinking of career?
Arrgghh

How I wish my life stays here, you know
Because I do not have to think so much
Basically my life now is about waiting for friends to call me : Princess, let's go bla bla bla
And then I will just go..
Outings outings and outings
PArties parties parties

OR I can simply 'con' my mum ' Mii, this Burberry bag is so nice, can i 'borrow' money from you?
Then I bought the bag...and return only some of the money
I'm a bad daughter =(

I was sicked a couple of days ago and my dad said ' Wow, you are at home today, I guess the only day that you will stay at home is when you fall sick huh?'
Felt ashamed and guilty actually because what he said was quite true

I should be grateful that I have life like this huh?
I even have time to day dream everyday..
This is what my friends told me ' Puiyee, I think your 'daydreaming' disease is getting worse already'
Yea they are right, I can always sit there and think NOTHING

Omg, I should really change this!!!
2011 is arriving in less than 2 weeks........
Anw, 2010 was not a bad year nor a very good year
2011????
Hmm, I don't want to think too much
At this time, what is more crucial is to change my lifestyle and attitude towards life
Wake up Princess!

In deep shit mood

In bad mood because of someone!

Definitely not the one in your mind..unless you know my stories

=(

Time passes so fast

I didn't realize that time passes so fast until I wished both of my jimui- Kahyan and Shuwen Happy Birthday again =)
I'm glad that we are still so close =) Not easy to have truthful friendship and I take them as my real close friends. It's hard though to have friendship forever especially when people grow up, they change.
I have changed a lot too.
Haha today Wei Sern said :" It seems that you have different thinking and mature liao"
Was so happy about that =)
I'm glad that ppl finally don't take me as the innocent xiao mei mei already

Anw,this post is about time passes so fast. So back to the topic.
0711, it's my ji muis birthday. I will never forget this special day.
At the same time, it used to be a 'special' day for me too.
Two years ago, 0711 was a nightmare for me
One year ago, I was still living in the shadow
After two years, today, I have FINALLY walked out from the shadow....
I have come so far but there are more infront..
How is it going to be??
I'm glad that life is still good
^^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY my darlings <3 you both so much

Hmmm

Wing : To like a person and to like a person to be enough to get together are different
Hmmmm
I think I know..
And timing is important too..
=(

Day Dreaming

I dunno why sometimes I can just sit and do nothing for hours
Pure thinking or dreaming
-.-
Exams is coming
Kill me pls

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1.03.01

-_-

There's always a little pain behind every 'It's OK'
I think I'm too used to keeping things to myself
When I don't say anything, it doesn't mean that I'm not hurt or I don't feel anything
But I can only blame myself for not telling people how I feel and what I want
It has always been like that for my entire life
I'm stupid, can't help myself.

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1.03.01

=.=

有时真的很难找到一个了解你的人
或者愿意了解你的人
尤其是在你也不了解自己的时候
无奈

这样也好

你也曾和我一样有过这种感觉？
害怕失去所以不敢拥有的感觉？
曾经拥有得那么多
后来却也失去那么多
所以当你害怕失去时
处在似有似无的状态会不会好一点？

贪心的想拥有更多
但却不愿意因而失去现在所拥有的一点点
一点点的感觉很好
平静的生活真好
不再怀念从前也不再对自己的未来幻想太多
这样也好
=）

Stressssssss

I find that reading other ppl's blog is fun =)
Part of it because I'm gepo..okay this one I know you know everybody knows
After reading other ppl's blog i feel my blog is full of rubbish
That is why i dun promote my blog
awful =.=
I just can't start doing my assignment
2000 words and I have only about one and a half day to do it..holly shit
Still trying to fb fb fb blogging blogging and find some shit to do to escape from it..
And now it's time to start
I guess?

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1.03.01

幸福

我有一个很奇怪的想法。。
曾经我幸福到一个程度，幸福到我怀疑为什么天对我那么好
然后没多久我碰钉了
从天堂掉落到地狱
那是在一夜间发生的事。

我记得幸福的日子似长似短
它维持了一年十一个月七天
对，我还记得。
过后我用了很长的时间试着让自己幸福起来
好像再也找不回那真正的感觉

我有一个很奇怪的想法。。
我觉得天不会让我们永远地快乐
人生必须有甜酸苦辣
给了你那么多，也就要付出那么多。

一年十一个月零七天，
我曾经幸福了那么久
其实后来也好像不幸福了快要一年十一个月了吧？
下个月的第七天应该是我不幸福的结束
幸福的开始

哈哈，我知道我很白痴
没关系
因为我真的相信天不会让你永远快乐
也不会让你永远的活在悲痛中
不是吗？=)

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1.03.01

=)

Feel so happy talking with EeWing and SiangLin today =)
<3 <3

:(

突然好想吃巧克力
为什么我爱吃的巧克力会使我发胖？
我只不过喜欢吃一颗普通的巧克力
却那么难

巧克力

以前我很喜欢吃巧克力
它可以带给我很大的满足感
也带给我幸福的感觉
吃巧克力的时候很幸福
可是吃巧克力是要付出代价的

以前就是这样，我不知道它的威力，然后我不停地吃
不顾后果地预支幸福的感觉
后来，我变得很胖很胖
我很伤心很伤心

然后我不断地减肥瘦身，因为我不要我不开心
瘦身的过程真的很辛苦
可是我还是熬了过来
后来我以为我瘦了

可是有一天我又开始不顾一切地吃巧克力
我怀念它带给我的幸福感觉
因为我在另一种食物得到的感觉不够我从巧克力得到的感觉来的实在
朋友们都阻止我
他们担心我再度发胖

每一次我吃它的时候我真的找回那幸福的感觉
可是，这一次，多了罪恶感
我不停地犹豫着是否应该继续地吃
最后我还是被罪恶感打倒了

没有巧克力的日子我不知道我可不可以真的不碰它
只好反复地回忆起那时候减肥时的辛苦
同时每天不小心又不停地想着那个‘幸福’感觉
蛮不好受的

我戒掉了巧克力
可是那‘幸福’的感觉会在我心里
有时可以望梅止渴
或许我可以吃另一种食物
可是巧克力带给我的感觉真的不一样
使我又爱又恨

巧克力是我暂时最爱吃的食物
可是人长大了不能那么不顾一切地吃零食
是时候吃主食了

还是。。。

有没有不会使你发胖的巧克力？
LOL. 我要！！！

是吗？

有朋友说，任何美好的事物都有期限的。

我说：‘是吗？可我觉得事在人为’
他说：‘你能永远地活着吗？’
我说：‘你不需要永远地活着，那美好的事才算是永恒的吧？只需要在你心中那是永远的不就可以了
吗？'

或许美好的事物事实上是有期限的，可是它可以在心中是永恒的。

LAzy to Update

I'm damn lazy to update my blog already
Don't like to expose everything to the world
Maybe i'll update again when i feel that i want to
But it will be after decades.
^^

我們沒有在一起

This song quite nice. I like it.

你一直說的那個公園已經拆了
還記得盪著鞦韆日子就飛起來
漫漫的下午陽光都在臉上撒野
你那傻氣 我真是想念

那時候小小的你還沒學會嘆氣
誰又會想到他們現在喊我女王
你哈哈笑的樣子倒是一點沒變
時間走了 誰還在等呢

這杯咖啡忘了加糖
真不是我那麼傷感
世界太複雜 你說單純很難 我當然都明白

可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的夢從來不大
我們沒有在一起至少還像情侶一樣
我痛的瘋的傷的在你面前哭得最慘

我知道你也不能帶我回到那個地方
你說你現在很好而且喜歡回憶很長
我們沒有在一起至少還像家人一樣
總是遠遠關心遠遠分享

那條路走呀走呀走呀總要回家
兩隻手握著晃呀晃呀捨不得放
你不知道吧後來後來我都在想
跟你走吧 管它去哪呀

我們沒有在一起至少還像朋友一樣

你遠遠的關心其實更長

S.A.D

Why would I have to face all the problems again again and again
I'm alwiz being very indecisive.
Not only other people can't stand me, i cannot stand myself either.
Friends care about me, they know what's good for me. But I don't know.
Now, I'm hurt. And others feel hurt too.
I will feel sorry for my family and friends and myself if I continue doing it.
True love is only meant for two persons, not three.
I have to do this for myself.
I don't want to disappoint my friends and family that truly care about me.
I'm sorry.

I have never had this shit feelings before.
It's like I want it and it's there for me but I cannot have it.
It sucks till the max.
I'M VERY VERY SAD.

=(

I'm not feeling good.
I feel uncertainty and insecurity and also guilty
I feel sad for someone. Because i know the feelings very well.
I have no confidence for myself
I will quit if i could
Anyone can teach me what to do?
No one can help. I'm the only one that can decide on my future.
Sad.Confused.
Because my feelings is controlling on me.
And i shouldn't do things with my feelings only.
It's gonna hurt at the end.

刘佩婗， 不要！

当全世界都叫你不要时，你却偏偏要
当你发觉你自己也知道那后果时，你却还为自己找错下去的理由
当你决定果断地把它遗忘时，却偏偏放不下
以为我不在乎，我好像更在乎
我或许只是随便应酬，可到后来却有一丝怀念
不知道自己想什么，也不知道在做什么
虽然有自我控制，心却不小心被人操控
遗忘，真难。

乱

只能用一个字形容现在的我 - 乱
思想乱，做的东西也很乱
我不知道我要怎么样
也不知道我想什么
算了，我什么都不管了
我觉得应该怎样做就怎样做
压抑自己的情感太久了
好像委屈自己太久了
我不需要为人家想那么多的
为自己想就好了
谢谢我的朋友们
我知道你们对我很好
我真的知道
我希望我不会让你们失望

天真

我变了吗？
我想这几个月我真的变了许多
以前我觉得好大的一件事情，如今对我而言只不过是一些芝麻绿豆的小事
人大了好像真的不一样了
少了以前那傻得很开心的天真

那天和Winzz喝茶，他说，世界上并没有好人
每个人都是坏的，都是自私的
我想他讲的有点对
长大了，看透了好多事情。
学会了好多人情世故
有时候，不是说你要这样做就这样做，要说就说
许多事情都得三思而后行

如果你问我
：‘你比较喜欢多姿多彩的生活还是那傻得很天真的生活’
我的答案肯定是后者
前者虽然让你学会享受生活，让你见识到许多东西
可它永远也比不上后者
好久都没有笨笨的，什么都不用想过着那无忧无虑的生活了

我并不是说现在很不开心
只不过，我怀念以前的心境
以前朋友之间没有尔虞我诈，大家思想简单直率
和任何一个朋友都相处得好舒服

可能这就叫作人生必经过程吧
人生有好多转折点
我想我正踏入‘成熟’阶段
虽然很不舍得告别幼稚的我
却也不太记得以前那傻傻笨笨的我是怎么样的了


过去让它过去
我只盼望明天会更好

=)

These days i have been hanging out with Monash friends a lot
Not to forget my Seiye Kahyan, The stupid worm and also Sheareen, Joanne and Shuwen.
My dearie Wing had left for Sydney =(
I feel it's good to separate us like that
So that we would realize how good friends we both are and that our friendship will never changed even though we're few thousand miles away from each other
( We still texting each other anw =p )

I'm quite happy with my life recently =) It's so peaceful with my new friends
Just that someone made me sad again =(...
Why ar?
I know I'm nothing for you but please stop doing that to me
I'm not a player!
Don't even know why i care so much bout you. Sigh
I'm thinking too much. Arrghh

Okay i know you ppl out there don't get what I'm trying to say
Just ignore me.

I should end the post with this random picture


I Love this picture


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And for the one who loves to back stab me a lot
You go ahead and do it
I'm not gonna give you a damn
I'm very disappointed for you and you're not my friend anymore.
Don't ask me who i'm talking about
Because you know it yourself who you are.

This is cool

It's gonna be mengada, but but but

See this >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

I didn't use any software to do this, no photoshop or whatsoever software
This is Siang Lin and I
I didn't know until Leeyien told me she saw my face in this magazine >>>>>>

Wookay, i know you might think, what's so big deal?
And i know it was because of Siang Lin's 'Japanese look' therefore they put the picture in magazine...
Haha forgive me for being so kampung
And STUPID


I spent Rm 7.50 for this car magazine just because of the small little photo. Lol

*Bro was surprised why the sister treat him soo good suddenly bought him this Car magazine* keke

Btw, I earned rm260 yesterday. Wakakaka
But i worked hard for that okay! =)
Tiring promoter job.

And this is the heart shape tang yuen i made after 'tang yuen festival' =)


Okok, enuff of 'mengada-ing'
Have a nice day =)

Christmas Eve & NYE

Lazy to talk too much..

Pictures will tell everything =)

NEW YEAR EVE....

Korean BBQ

Korean restaurant (the girls)

Our age *oh no v're old*

Kim Seng and the birthday girl (Catherine)

Solaris

Sooo many ppl

Drinking (I was drinking water)

Birthday girl


Camwhoring in the toilet


Fireworks =)
Laughter

Pretty girls =)

CHRISTMAS EVE....

Ah Yat Bao Yu Restaurant

M&P

S&P

Yvonne and MPSJ

Ar Yat Bao Yu

Opera

M went missing

Sc & I

Lao Hu, Sc & I

Siang Lin & I

All drunk

Btw, i saw this at my dearie Wing wing blog and I feel it's really meaningful and it talks about me i think. She's a good writer, how i wish i can be like her.

“Ever felt like you're running a never-ending marathon?
And yet you keep running along only because you don't know the way back -back to who you used to be?”

Can you feel what i feel ?