Time flies

I feel my life is changing very fast everyday
Today, u might b close with this bunch of friends and go for trips or parties but then after a few months or a few years they might then become your 'Hi Bye' friends..
I'm sure most of us have come across this kind of situation..
Ppl like me, tend to miss the past alot because we alwiz look at the happy side of the past
Memories are usually beautiful because it just won't come back again, past is the past =(
I will always thk: ' omg, i was so cute last time, so cute and young, so energetic and *so many admirers haha*'
Arrgghh..i'm just trying to express out how i miss my past..my childhood, my primary and secondary school time and especially my foundation ..awww..it was so great tat my life wasn't fulled with ups and downs, i dun feel like growing up, seriously..
* i was seeing my old pictures and videos - good memories =)*
For most of u, u might think wat's so special about this pic above?
I know it's a bit random to post this pic but this pic actually reminds me of many things
This pic was taken two years ago, i was sitting at Starbucks in ss15 with my dearest Leeyien if I'm not mistaken
As u can see, the new building of Inti College wasn't there
Just a simple pic, it reminds me of how i used to reach ss15 at 7.50 a.m and bought sandwich at Baker's Cottage then go into the class
That time, my life was so simple..
I'm not saying that I'm not happy with my *happening* life now, it's just that i miss the old times..

I have changed

I HAVE CHANGED to a not so good gal =(

I prefer the last time me :

1) Anti clubbing - Only once or twice a year
2) Not so gepo, din talk so much
3) Can be very soft and quiet
4) Study alot, half nerdy
5) My curfew was 12 a.m.
6) Not so many outings - spend more time at home
7) Seldom put make up
8) Think less sleep more and sleep earlier
9) Simple

Now:
1) Half clubber - Almost every week ppl ask me go club, bar or pub
2) Talk talk talk until sometimes i feel myself is annoying
3) I talk slightly louder than last time i thk, laughing very loudly sometimes
4) Slack alot, skip class, never do homework, copy assgm - average dropping every sem
5) My curfew has been extended to 2 a.m++ by myself - parents no eye c
6) Outings and outings - Yam cha, bazaar, shopping, dinner, lunch, breakfast with frens, birthday parties, clubs, bar, badminton, movie, cheong k....bla bla bla
7) One week ard 3-4 days will put make up
8) Thking mou liu thing, alwiz sleep late at night - panda eyes =(
9) Complicated

So, i'm trying to find back the last time me, changing myself to become a good girl now,
I promised

Too many things to blog about

When i browse thru ppl's blog, i found out sth very interesting haha but i aint gonna blog bout it, just interesting..
When i read back my older posts, i feel interesting too haha, abit miss my 'sat luen' period, lol, though it was sad but i had many frenz to care bout me and i miss my four months holidays too, i was having so much fun with frenz
Things just changed, sigh, sometimes i miss the innocent me but i hv already forgotten how's the feelings of being an innocent gal =(
Btw, i hv too many things to express out but i dunno how, i nid a new diary, i hv finished using my diary edi, waiting for the worm to buy for me
Lately, i feel my life is getting too 'interesting' edi, i nid rest and i nid simple life, PLZZ !!!
I'M TIRED!!! OF EVERYTHING

Complicated

Things are just so complicated now..sigh i need rest..seriously
Ppl might thk i'm insane by doing this and tat, but they couldn't help me out, only i can help myself
Sometimes i dun even know wat myself is doing
I wanna make my life simpler before my Insomnia is getting worse =(
Arrgghhh..hate it
Things just aren't the same and i miss my simple life =(

Song Title:Tuo Xie 妥协
Singer Name: Jolin Tsai (Cai Yi Lin)

你总爱编织谎言 我负责配合表演
所有改变 只为了进入你的世界
这情节 重复了一百遍
才发现 是你的心太野
你划定楚河汉界 我不能轻易犯规
所有时间 都是先给了你优先权
不自觉 爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈
爱到妥协 到头来还是无解
绑着你 不让你飞
历史不断重演 我好累
爱到妥协 也无法将故事再重写
你已下最后通牒
我躲在我的世界
你只是害怕一个人睡
我不想再为你掉泪
我了解 不会变 不再徘徊
开始自己的明天