Friday, August 5, 2011

I need colours

Honestly, I'm lack of colours in my wardrobe and maybe my life
Though i'm kinda happy and satisfied with my current life being an 'useless' person
I say this because my life currently is just like a housewife's life..erm maybe a more 贵妇 kind of housewife because I don't need to do housechores..lolz
My daily life is basically about picking up my brother from his school, bring him to makan and tuition then i will go and help out my parents in the office (not really help out actually, just do some basic accounts and walking around)
It's been almost a month since I came back from my wonderful Australia trip
I'm waiting for the company that i applied for job to give me response..
Frankly, I'm not very gan jeong..haha because I'm afraid of earning my own money, waking up early in the morning, and then i need to say bye to my heavenly lifestyle..
I have been asking my friend's opinion about what company I shd get into and which is better
bla bla bla
I have to admit that i'm a really princess-like person..
When I'm not even sure whether there's any kind employer out there wanna hire me, I already start worrying about the traffic jam, the working hours, the job and whether the company's well-known or not..
I think there's only one company will fulfill all my requirements and will hire me, lolx i mean my parent's company..
There's another funny thing when i ask my friend about job hunting
This friend of mine give me 5 options

1. become siu lai lai (rich housewife)
2. become normal housewife
3. Study ACCA
4. Work in the company that I have sent my resume to
5. Own business

Lolx right?
Obviously, he's telling me to choose the first one when I tell him I want high salary job and fun + easy job..
So i told him first one requires a rich husband which I'm not the fortune teller and I dunno about my future..eventhough i used to wish to be one, but i actually dun wan to be a dumb woman and get dumped by husband and lose everything..so I think i nid to have my own career
So it's either third or fourth choice ...
Hmmm

Okay, back to my 'i need colours' topic
My bf has been complaining about my fashion sense and i just came to realize that yea I do have a bad fashion sense..okay it's not too late right
However, firstly, these days i'm a jobless person and I dun wan to get allowance from my parents..
So, I'm totally broke and I do not have $$$$$$$..
I cannot touch my savings..because those are my 姑婆本lolx just kidding
I'm spending way too much than last time and everytime when I use my debit card to swipe my lovely clothes back , I din really care about the money left in my bank account until recently i decided I need a long break out of shopping..
Secondly, I'm fat
Seriously..I need to blame my bf because he brings me to go for nice food EVERYDAY
I wont be surprised if one day he wanna dump me because i'm too fat..lol
Besides that, I have had a long break since the last time i attend my yoga class and heading to the gym with my brother..
OMFG..
I have gained effing 4kgs..
nightmares will be coming soon if i dun start changing my wardrobe and most importantly to drive away my 水桶腰 & 象腿..i mean my beer belly and elephant-liked thigh

So I have to start thinking of a way to solve my problem..
Enuff crapping...
Sorry, I'm just too free while waiting for my mafan bf to come back from work..
chaos


Friday, May 6, 2011

Old friends

Lately, many of my good friends find me for catching up session
I feel that friends do not have to hang out together too often to become good friends
Sometimes a simple 'what's app', 'fb msg' or a simple catching up session in mamak make me feel warm and I know I still have you as my good friends to share stories about our recent life
I'm so lucky and grateful to have friends that never failed to find me and tell me that they miss me
I'm so sorry that I never take the initiative to find you all....
But I seriously feel so happy and warm with your simple 'hello, how have you been?'
=)

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从不喜欢一个人到爱上那个人的感觉真奇妙
真的就想这样定下来
因为安定的生活很好

Thursday, May 5, 2011

I feel old

My birthday is coming in less than a month
And I will be officially 22 =(
I feel old seriously
However, I feel I'm having a good life
Feel so contented with my life now
I have good family
Good friends
I have everything that I want
Am appreciating my happy life before I'm stepping into the real world
Oh gosh, I feel so excited yet curious about my future
Hmmm...

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

阶段

忽然发現人在不同的阶段所要的幸福是不一样的
曾经把爱幻想得很美
也曾经为爱而委屈配合别人,迷失了自己
从前总在寻找自己很爱的人
现在才愕然发现
被爱比较幸福

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

My girl friends

Sometimes I just feel I'm so lucky to have so many girl friends
Because people always claim that girls cannot really stay too close to each other or else there will be many conflicts between them..
I'm glad that I'm still living peacefully with my babes <3
Although some of them are staying at another country, we can still chat and gossip for hours a day ^^







Monday, December 20, 2010

It's December already

I'm just backed from a yum cha session with the usual gang
We were talking about some working stuff and adult stuff
Suddenly I feel like ' Hey I have to be more matured already'
I used to always say' I feel like I'm more grown up day by day'

But at this time, the end of the year again..I think I shouldn't say this
Instead I should start planning for my future and start doing something
Not just by sitting there and say 'Yeah, I feel I'm grown up' but continue doing stupid things
Such as wasting time on too much entertainment

Yea, I really do admit that I have too much entertainment
Ever since the beginning of 2009, and now the end of 2010..
I have too much parties, outings, trips, 'chilling session'.......
It's time to spend some time thinking of how to earn money?
Thinking of career?
Arrgghh

How I wish my life stays here, you know
Because I do not have to think so much
Basically my life now is about waiting for friends to call me : Princess, let's go bla bla bla
And then I will just go..
Outings outings and outings
PArties parties parties

OR I can simply 'con' my mum ' Mii, this Burberry bag is so nice, can i 'borrow' money from you?
Then I bought the bag...and return only some of the money
I'm a bad daughter =(

I was sicked a couple of days ago and my dad said ' Wow, you are at home today, I guess the only day that you will stay at home is when you fall sick huh?'
Felt ashamed and guilty actually because what he said was quite true

I should be grateful that I have life like this huh?
I even have time to day dream everyday..
This is what my friends told me ' Puiyee, I think your 'daydreaming' disease is getting worse already'
Yea they are right, I can always sit there and think NOTHING

Omg, I should really change this!!!
2011 is arriving in less than 2 weeks........
Anw, 2010 was not a bad year nor a very good year
2011????
Hmm, I don't want to think too much
At this time, what is more crucial is to change my lifestyle and attitude towards life
Wake up Princess!

Thursday, December 2, 2010

In deep shit mood

In bad mood because of someone!

Definitely not the one in your mind..unless you know my stories

=(

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Time passes so fast



I didn't realize that time passes so fast until I wished both of my jimui- Kahyan and Shuwen Happy Birthday again =)
I'm glad that we are still so close =) Not easy to have truthful friendship and I take them as my real close friends. It's hard though to have friendship forever especially when people grow up, they change.
I have changed a lot too.
Haha today Wei Sern said :" It seems that you have different thinking and mature liao"
Was so happy about that =)
I'm glad that ppl finally don't take me as the innocent xiao mei mei already

Anw,this post is about time passes so fast. So back to the topic.
0711, it's my ji muis birthday. I will never forget this special day.
At the same time, it used to be a 'special' day for me too.
Two years ago, 0711 was a nightmare for me
One year ago, I was still living in the shadow
After two years, today, I have FINALLY walked out from the shadow....
I have come so far but there are more infront..
How is it going to be??
I'm glad that life is still good
^^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY my darlings <3 you both so much




Thursday, October 28, 2010

Hmmm

Wing : To like a person and to like a person to be enough to get together are different
Hmmmm
I think I know..
And timing is important too..
=(

Monday, October 18, 2010

Day Dreaming

I dunno why sometimes I can just sit and do nothing for hours
Pure thinking or dreaming
-.-
Exams is coming
Kill me pls

Friday, October 15, 2010

-_-

There's always a little pain behind every 'It's OK'
I think I'm too used to keeping things to myself
When I don't say anything, it doesn't mean that I'm not hurt or I don't feel anything
But I can only blame myself for not telling people how I feel and what I want
It has always been like that for my entire life
I'm stupid, can't help myself.

Saturday, October 2, 2010

=.=

有时真的很难找到一个了解你的人
或者愿意了解你的人
尤其是在你也不了解自己的时候
无奈

Sunday, September 19, 2010

这样也好

你也曾和我一样有过这种感觉?
害怕失去所以不敢拥有的感觉?
曾经拥有得那么多
后来却也失去那么多
所以当你害怕失去时
处在似有似无的状态会不会好一点?

贪心的想拥有更多
但却不愿意因而失去现在所拥有的一点点
一点点的感觉很好
平静的生活真好
不再怀念从前也不再对自己的未来幻想太多
这样也好
=)

Monday, September 13, 2010

Stressssssss

I find that reading other ppl's blog is fun =)
Part of it because I'm gepo..okay this one I know you know everybody knows
After reading other ppl's blog i feel my blog is full of rubbish
That is why i dun promote my blog
awful =.=
I just can't start doing my assignment
2000 words and I have only about one and a half day to do it..holly shit
Still trying to fb fb fb blogging blogging and find some shit to do to escape from it..
And now it's time to start
I guess?

Sunday, September 12, 2010

幸福

我有一个很奇怪的想法。。
曾经我幸福到一个程度,幸福到我怀疑为什么天对我那么好
然后没多久我碰钉了
从天堂掉落到地狱
那是在一夜间发生的事。

我记得幸福的日子似长似短
它维持了一年十一个月七天
对,我还记得。
过后我用了很长的时间试着让自己幸福起来
好像再也找不回那真正的感觉

我有一个很奇怪的想法。。
我觉得天不会让我们永远地快乐
人生必须有甜酸苦辣
给了你那么多,也就要付出那么多。

一年十一个月零七天,
我曾经幸福了那么久
其实后来也好像不幸福了快要一年十一个月了吧?
下个月的第七天应该是我不幸福的结束
幸福的开始

哈哈,我知道我很白痴
没关系
因为我真的相信天不会让你永远快乐
也不会让你永远的活在悲痛中
不是吗?=)

Saturday, August 28, 2010

=)

Feel so happy talking with EeWing and SiangLin today =)
<3 <3

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

:(

突然好想吃巧克力
为什么我爱吃的巧克力会使我发胖?
我只不过喜欢吃一颗普通的巧克力
却那么难

Monday, August 23, 2010

巧克力

以前我很喜欢吃巧克力
它可以带给我很大的满足感
也带给我幸福的感觉
吃巧克力的时候很幸福
可是吃巧克力是要付出代价的

以前就是这样,我不知道它的威力,然后我不停地吃
不顾后果地预支幸福的感觉
后来,我变得很胖很胖
我很伤心很伤心

然后我不断地减肥瘦身,因为我不要我不开心
瘦身的过程真的很辛苦
可是我还是熬了过来
后来我以为我瘦了

可是有一天我又开始不顾一切地吃巧克力
我怀念它带给我的幸福感觉
因为我在另一种食物得到的感觉不够我从巧克力得到的感觉来的实在
朋友们都阻止我
他们担心我再度发胖

每一次我吃它的时候我真的找回那幸福的感觉
可是,这一次,多了罪恶感
我不停地犹豫着是否应该继续地吃
最后我还是被罪恶感打倒了

没有巧克力的日子我不知道我可不可以真的不碰它
只好反复地回忆起那时候减肥时的辛苦
同时每天不小心又不停地想着那个‘幸福’感觉
蛮不好受的

我戒掉了巧克力
可是那‘幸福’的感觉会在我心里
有时可以望梅止渴
或许我可以吃另一种食物
可是巧克力带给我的感觉真的不一样
使我又爱又恨

巧克力是我暂时最爱吃的食物
可是人长大了不能那么不顾一切地吃零食
是时候吃主食了

还是。。。

有没有不会使你发胖的巧克力?
LOL. 我要!!!

Sunday, August 22, 2010

是吗?

有朋友说,任何美好的事物都有期限的。

我说:‘是吗?可我觉得事在人为’
他说:‘你能永远地活着吗?’
我说:‘你不需要永远地活着,那美好的事才算是永恒的吧?只需要在你心中那是永远的不就可以了
吗?'

或许美好的事物事实上是有期限的,可是它可以在心中是永恒的。

Saturday, July 17, 2010

LAzy to Update

I'm damn lazy to update my blog already
Don't like to expose everything to the world
Maybe i'll update again when i feel that i want to
But it will be after decades.
^^