Oh no

Omg, suddenly i feel i look better last time after i compare my old pictures and recent pictures
Sad =( Very Sad =(
But what can i do?
How i wish my 'cute' face come back where i looked good without make up =(

I just came back from a tiring camp, it was better than i expected =)
My god..i should start on my work already
Soooo tired

Time flies

I feel my life is changing very fast everyday
Today, u might b close with this bunch of friends and go for trips or parties but then after a few months or a few years they might then become your 'Hi Bye' friends..
I'm sure most of us have come across this kind of situation..
Ppl like me, tend to miss the past alot because we alwiz look at the happy side of the past
Memories are usually beautiful because it just won't come back again, past is the past =(
I will always thk: ' omg, i was so cute last time, so cute and young, so energetic and *so many admirers haha*'
Arrgghh..i'm just trying to express out how i miss my past..my childhood, my primary and secondary school time and especially my foundation ..awww..it was so great tat my life wasn't fulled with ups and downs, i dun feel like growing up, seriously..
* i was seeing my old pictures and videos - good memories =)*
For most of u, u might think wat's so special about this pic above?
I know it's a bit random to post this pic but this pic actually reminds me of many things
This pic was taken two years ago, i was sitting at Starbucks in ss15 with my dearest Leeyien if I'm not mistaken
As u can see, the new building of Inti College wasn't there
Just a simple pic, it reminds me of how i used to reach ss15 at 7.50 a.m and bought sandwich at Baker's Cottage then go into the class
That time, my life was so simple..
I'm not saying that I'm not happy with my *happening* life now, it's just that i miss the old times..

I have changed

I HAVE CHANGED to a not so good gal =(

I prefer the last time me :

1) Anti clubbing - Only once or twice a year
2) Not so gepo, din talk so much
3) Can be very soft and quiet
4) Study alot, half nerdy
5) My curfew was 12 a.m.
6) Not so many outings - spend more time at home
7) Seldom put make up
8) Think less sleep more and sleep earlier
9) Simple

Now:
1) Half clubber - Almost every week ppl ask me go club, bar or pub
2) Talk talk talk until sometimes i feel myself is annoying
3) I talk slightly louder than last time i thk, laughing very loudly sometimes
4) Slack alot, skip class, never do homework, copy assgm - average dropping every sem
5) My curfew has been extended to 2 a.m++ by myself - parents no eye c
6) Outings and outings - Yam cha, bazaar, shopping, dinner, lunch, breakfast with frens, birthday parties, clubs, bar, badminton, movie, cheong k....bla bla bla
7) One week ard 3-4 days will put make up
8) Thking mou liu thing, alwiz sleep late at night - panda eyes =(
9) Complicated

So, i'm trying to find back the last time me, changing myself to become a good girl now,
I promised

Too many things to blog about

When i browse thru ppl's blog, i found out sth very interesting haha but i aint gonna blog bout it, just interesting..
When i read back my older posts, i feel interesting too haha, abit miss my 'sat luen' period, lol, though it was sad but i had many frenz to care bout me and i miss my four months holidays too, i was having so much fun with frenz
Things just changed, sigh, sometimes i miss the innocent me but i hv already forgotten how's the feelings of being an innocent gal =(
Btw, i hv too many things to express out but i dunno how, i nid a new diary, i hv finished using my diary edi, waiting for the worm to buy for me
Lately, i feel my life is getting too 'interesting' edi, i nid rest and i nid simple life, PLZZ !!!
I'M TIRED!!! OF EVERYTHING

Complicated

Things are just so complicated now..sigh i need rest..seriously
Ppl might thk i'm insane by doing this and tat, but they couldn't help me out, only i can help myself
Sometimes i dun even know wat myself is doing
I wanna make my life simpler before my Insomnia is getting worse =(
Arrgghhh..hate it
Things just aren't the same and i miss my simple life =(

Song Title:Tuo Xie 妥协
Singer Name: Jolin Tsai (Cai Yi Lin)

你总爱编织谎言 我负责配合表演
所有改变 只为了进入你的世界
这情节 重复了一百遍
才发现 是你的心太野
你划定楚河汉界 我不能轻易犯规
所有时间 都是先给了你优先权
不自觉 爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈
爱到妥协 到头来还是无解
绑着你 不让你飞
历史不断重演 我好累
爱到妥协 也无法将故事再重写
你已下最后通牒
我躲在我的世界
你只是害怕一个人睡
我不想再为你掉泪
我了解 不会变 不再徘徊
开始自己的明天

Life is Great =)

I'm kinda busy recently, i hv too many things to do as uni started =)
Dunno y suddenly so many ppl ask me out tmr :

1. Shuyi asked me to jog with her in Bukit Jalil
2. Kat asked me to go red box with her
3. Angie asked me to accompany her to CHS to take her bro's result + hang out after that
4. Kai li said because yest Kahyan went movie and yam cha with him so tmr is my turn ( mayb he say say oni)
5. Gonna attend Kim Seng's Birthday celebration
6. Wei Sern asked me out for drinks
7. I hv yoga class with my sis tmr..zzz

At first, my plan was to stay at home study and do homework then go jogging with Shuyi then yoga class but since i'm attending Kim Seng's birthday celebration i thk i'm gonna ffk Shuyi and then skip yoga class tmr


I have to-do lists too :

1. Revise and do homework!!! - 'Forever-cannot-make-it' group study
2. Shop for clothes!!!
3. Read story book
4. Buy diary and album
5. Alter my jeans
6. Give Anne back her bag that i hv kept for her for ages
7. Buy books and wrap
8. Make myself slp early!!! But how??? sigh

Life is great lately except for my Insomnia and 'something' that is driving me crazy!!!

Tempting Heart

Sometimes i feel abit lazy to blog about outings, especially if i go to club..ppl, i'm not a clubber okay?!!! i dun go to club very often..i alwiz say i wanna go or i will go but i alwiz ended up staying at home like today, like now, i'm blogging here =) anyway, it's a good thing whn u ppl say i'm a clubber i might thn remind myself not to go =)
Today, my schedule was quite fulled, had a small gathering with the 5s7 ppl hehe, my dearest leeyien will update her blog soon (she's very effiecient!!!), so, i will leave that part for her

I'm goin jogging, mahjong, swimming with the worm, Boey and Sheow Pin and frens tmr..i hope by doin so much exercise i could atleast burn some of my fat..sigh, i wonder why, i hv been doin alot of exercise lately - yoga, badminton, jogging, but i still gained weight and i din eat much too *sob* mayb slping too late at night will make myself gain weight..

Just fin watching the Astro Asq (the singing competition) lol i personally feel Ryan is very leng zai lo haha..the finalists are quite talented and i'm satisfied with the result..love the songs they sang just now in the competition, all are K-songs that i sang wid my ex-classmates this afternoon in Red box =) and i'm gonna sing this song nex time whn i go red box :

Tempting Heart 心动

有多久没见你 以为你在那里
原来就住在我心底 陪伴着我的呼吸
有多远的距离 以为闻不到你的气息
谁知道你背影这么长 回头就看到你
过去让它过去 来不及
从头喜欢你 白云缠绕着蓝天
如果不能够永远走在一起
也至少给我们怀念的勇气 拥抱的权利
好让你明白 我心动 的痕迹
总是想再见你 还试着打探你 消息
原来你就住在我的身体守护我的回忆

Time to slp, and i know i couldn't slp cos it's 1 a.m, my insomnia is getting better, instead of 6 a.m. i'm slping at 3a.m every night..i know it's still very late but i will try to make it earlier =)
Ohya, yesterday night Shuyi was so funny, she msged me at 5 a.m and she tot i might b still awaked and today, Kahyan and YinHoo were so nice to wake me up so that i'll be on time for the gathering =) i'll be punctual, dun worry haha

Insomnia

Arrghh.. i didn't slp well the past few days
I dunno why...
Lately, my life is just about Television, Facebook, Blog, Jogging, Yoga class, Yam cha, shopping, Red box and red box and red box with diff ppl
:( It's kinda boring and dull right?
When i browse thru ppl's blog i c trips, parties, gatherings, farewells, clubs * envy!!!*
And now uni started, it's a good thing atleast i hv more things to do but i'm gonna b a nerd this semester..seriously a nerd - wear t-shirt and shorts with sports shoes to uni haha, tie up the hair, no make-up, no heels, holding big files and thick books, school bag? Staying in the library everyday ?? lol

I have been spending more of my time with my family, i even talked to mum till 5 a.m yesterday :) hehe, i guess she was surprised by her daughter who has grown up so much and she's no more the innocent and immature gal :)
I'm suffering from insomnia lately :( my daily routine is sux!! I hv been sleeping at 5 or 6 a.m and waking up at 3 p.m almost everyday since the holidays started, and the holidays ended but i still practice that..sigh
I wanna make myself slp at 11 p.m!! wake up at 8 a.m!! can i???
So, who is willing to pick up the princess's call at 3 or 4 am when she couldn't slp? Let me know, okay?

Reality

Yesterday night i couldn't slp or i shd say i didn't wanna slp

After came back yam cha wid Wei Sern and fren at Coco Banana and online chatting for awhile

I watched this Hong Kong movie till 6.a.m oni thn i went to bed

I personally like this movie partly bcos I like Stephy and Alex Fong

This movie describes how a thing that u believed in so much might in fact it is a biggest lie

And something that u have misunderstood might not be clarified forever

It's about how a girl believed in this guy so much that in fact he's a big liar and she didn't find it out till the end of the story

While she misunderstood this guy that loved her so much and he's a good guy

And so she ended up together with a big liar at the end of the story =(

Things just aren't so simple in reality, isn't it?

We cannot jump into conclusion so fast even though it seems so real

A noble lie is better than a cruel fact? or you would rather u know everything in reality?

As for me, i still not sure about it, but i have learned to choose what to believe and what shdn't in life

Do watch the movie if u have time =)

Thank you

最近我又有很多感触

人长大了真的必须学会成熟

以前觉得很大的一件事，现在对我而言只不过是很小的一件事

许多事情都是看你自己如何去看待或接受

从前的我真的有点不够成熟，只把自己的事情和感情的事放在第一位

经过了一些事情我才醒悟，原来我太傻了，对感情太执着，太不成熟

除了爱情，我们还有学业，事业，家人和朋友

或许你们会说，你现在才懂啊？

之前的我是知道，可是我还是活在自己的世界里

问一问自己，你知道爱情不可以被摆在第一位，可是你有做到吗？

我真希望自己可以办到

Recently, i feel that i have grown up alot

As we are growing up, we have to learn to be mature

Something that was a very big deal to me some time ago has now become trifles

It just depends on your perception towards the thing that happens to you

I had been abit immature in handling love matters, i used to put love as the most important thing in my life

After i have been thru something, now, i realize i was too silly, being too persistent in love and too childhish

There's more to life than just relationship

I took few days to comprehend the meaning of this sentence

Studies, Career, Family and Friends are way more important than just love..

Sorry to my family, friends or even myself for being so late to wake up to reality

I promise to be more mature in life

I know, there are still many challenges in life waiting for me

I just hope that, i could live my life to fullest with no regret!

To someone, thanks for ur accompanion and everything in these few months

You taught me alot of things, really

Atleast, i'm more mature now

You might not even read this but still i wanna say

Thank you

Memories - PD + Malacca trip

I shd have blogged bout my PD trip, MOS night, gathering..bla bla bla..but i had no mood to do that..You know wat, it's 4.11 a.m and i suddenly hv the mood to blog..

Just now, i went to Momo Paradise with Suet Chen, Siang Lin and Wei Sern :) it was quite a nice dinner after so long nvr c them =) Din expect v had so many things to talk =)

After dinner, i went to Shuyi's place, v ( Yaw shing + fren, Lup Yan, Huo Guang, Leeyien, Shuyi and i) enjoyed playing 'Pictionary' till 3 ++ a.m =)

So i'm gonna blog about PD + Malacca trip first..

PD trip was so so, first and last trip with him? Anw, photos say better than words >>>>

Nice to see but not nice to slp on =( he din slp the whole night

Oppss abit messy haha..just wanna show the bath tub..cool right?

Our room was at the corner, *nice view* =)

The bfsss chilling while the three of us walking along the beach

Banana boat =) quite fun hehe

Daniu didn't wanna accompany Shuyi =(

Waiting for the other 3 couples at the hotel lobby..zzz

Makan makan..8 dishes *wow so full* and FAT!!!!

ppl walking along the beach and i was talking with him....lazy to walk

In the hotel car park before v headed to Malacca (y take pic here??)

FOR more details visit Leeyien's blog =)

Malacca >>>>>>>

Chicken rice balls =) but i dun thk it's nice lo

Lol, the 3 of us..first time go for trip with the bfsss

For more details visit Kenneth's blog =)

Weird feelings

不想懂得

当世界 不知不觉的变了
有时候 我怀念以前的我
作的梦虽然远远的
想象是 一种快乐
拥有了 同时也失去什么
而眷恋 原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾里成熟 心开始曲折
我不想舍得 不想懂得
是谁惹谁 言不由衷
说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么 我不想舍得
不想懂得谁说割爱 才更深刻
彼此依赖 是爱多 还是复合
能握着手就是感动的

Time to pppp party!!!!!!!!!!!

muahhahahahahahaaha finals hv just finished and i'm having my three weeks holidays wohooooo

i hv lotsa lotsa things to do, not enuff time man haha

but i'll miss the time i spent in Monash Library till 11 p.m before the finals with the gang, stress but quite fun :) i shall do the same thing nex sem :)

Haha i just hv a little time to blog here before i depart to Port Dickson with another three couples :)

I went Italianese with Monash ppl right after my last paper, then went to watch Transformers with the boy friend and din sleep for 24 hours haha..tired zzz..

Then, today i pergi cheong k and shopping with my Ji Muizz...

I macam just come out from kampung cos i bought lotsa lotsa things like i never shopped for ten years..

Sigh, i spent six hundred ++ in a day (i bought present for mummy's birthday)

Not enuff time not enuff time for me to spend haha!!!

I needa pay bill needa exercise gam fei!!!!!

My brothers and sister say i'm reli flying right after the finals..

They only see me at night haha..sorry

Anw, i'm leaving my house for 4 days 3 nights to Port Dickson and Malacca and somewhere tmr :)

Port Diskson again? hmm..i also dunno y but just go lo cos the hotel quite cheap :) just hope tat it won't be boring..not expecting so much

And i'm here to post a picture of me n my dearest ji mui :) and i'm going to watch my Gossip girl and go Facebook & Msn..hehehe chao

i wish my holidays will be fun!!!!!!!!!!!

I

I dun look good even this is the nicest one among the pics v took :(

I pui fok my lee yien jj alot..she can write till so detailed bout a small outing haha..so, this is the link = Ji mui outing

I miss my frens

To all my dearest frens,

Sorry if i haven't been c ing u all and nvr contact u all for quite some time..
I have been busy studying for my final, and i still have my last paper nex Tues..
I just wanna tell u all..i din 'zong se qing you' le..haha i'm not sticking wid him..
I have married to Monash University and i hv been sticking wid my monash frens and monash library and my books everyday :(
Anw, wait for me :) four days more..(to be specific, it's nex tues, 23rd of June!!!)
Yes!!!!! four days more n i can 'fly'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wahahahahahhahahahahahahahaahahahah

(I wish i could pass all :( i'm afraid i couldn't)

Love,
Princess

War time!!

My god!!! i hv just finished my first paper...sigh..not as good as wat i expected..i just want a PASS!! can i???
My second paper is coming in 3 more days and i'm still blogging here..haizzzzzzzzz
I din have time to blog bout my birthday le haiz
Anw, it was a special one for me this year =) simple but happy =)
When will i b nex year??? Aussie???? haha just make sure i'm not having exam on my birthday nex year!!!
Thanks all for ur wish k, i appreciate it ..alot!!!!! even though u all din celebrate wid me =(

I'm day dreaming now, feel like listing down my to-do list after my final:
1) Exercise- to stay healthy and so that i look slimmer and prettier of course haha!!!!!!!!
2) Swimming hehe (buy swim suit or bikini?)
3) Gossip girl!!!!!!! four more episodes waiting for me man
4) Trips? hopefully
5) Movies (Transformer in IMAX =)
6) Red box wid my ji muis
7) Shopping..alwiz one lo
8) manicure/ pedicure? haha
9) i want beach!! hill top?..erm outside Malaysia? haha

So..i'll stop my dream now and go study!!! =(

It's The Princess's birthday man!!!

Omg omg..the princess's birthday is coming wei...
:( no one cares..i know u all wanna say tat..
sigh..y every year my birthday must fall on the day tat ppl r having exams, busy working and bla bla bla one a?
Nvm lo, this year i dun wanna bother my friends who are busy studying for exams to celebrate wid me..i'm being so considerate isn't it? ha ha
I just wish tat everyone will study hard..unlike me..sigh
This year I'm probably gonna spend my time wid family on my birthday loo..
But i dun mind if u all wanna deliver some presents to my house haha..
Good luck to all my frens who're having exams soon!!!! let's hang out after exams!!!!!

Memorable Day <3

16 May 2009 was a MEMORABLE, EXCITING, SCARY, SWEET AND HAPPY DAY for me...

I love Tenji...yummy yummy hehe

I love the day..

And i love ...

:) I just hope that everything will be fine

开心就好

最近,我感到很幸福..
并不是因为我恋爱了而是因为我发觉原来很多朋友都很关心我..
当他们一次又一次地劝我不要陷进去,到最后却只能默默地为我担心然后支持我的决定..
原来朋友在什么时候都比情人重要..
我最欣慰的是,有些朋友还会警告我说: " 你不可以再像上次那样陷那么深了, 知道吗?"
这句简单的劝告使我觉得我很幸福..
朋友都会担心我再次受伤害..
连我自己也是在战战兢兢地接受突如其来的惊喜和快乐
一天比一天开心, 却一天比一天害怕
害怕承受开心过后所带来的伤害..
我担心因为我知道, 越开心就表示后来的伤害就或许越深..
算了吧, 大家都说-开心就好..
那么我那样担心又怎么样享受这或许短暂的开心呢?
开心就好。。对吗？我不知道

原来

最近有很多感触
原来当一个人喜欢或爱着你的时候，他可以无条件地为你做任何东西，让你感动流泪，让你感到很幸福
可相反的，当那个人已不再爱你或喜欢你，他可以敷衍你，对你就连朋友都不如
这都很正常，人就是这样，喜欢一个人或一样东西的时候总是对那个人或那样东西付出
可悲的是，喜欢或爱原来都有期限的
曾经你那么地深爱着那个人，有一天你突然发现你与他也只不过是陌生人
从陌生人变成情人，然后又变回陌生人
人生不就是这样吗？
分手后再做朋友？那应该很难吧?除非你们都不曾深爱过对方
所以，正接受着人家无条件付出的你或我们都应该珍惜现在所拥有的，因为那不是必然的，更不是永恒的
有一天你们分开了，过后或许会回想起，原来你也曾为一个陌生人付出过这么多

安静的周末

终于我有时间静下来，享受属于自己的空间。。
时间飞逝，我顿时觉得我的每一天都像流星般-过了就只能变成回忆
从来不太想过未来的我，突然觉得有点迷惘。。
我的未来不会是我想要的简单的生活吧？
对，一定很精彩！
昨天；今天；明天
成为回忆的昨天总是美好的；可我们却不太会珍惜即将成为回忆的现在
因为拥有某些东西的时候我们总意识不到其实自己是幸福的
明天；我们都把它想象得太美好了
可是无论未来是开心或不开心，那也只是人生
如果上天只让人们享受开心，那样好吗？
哈哈，活在童话故事里的我正学着成熟。。
真不想长大。。
长大了就不再记得当初天真时所享受的幸福是多么美好的
无论如何，至少现在的我还是幸福的

我有点喜欢这首歌 =）。。

美丽心情

多雨的冬季總算過去
天空微露淡藍的晴
我在早春清新的陽光裡
看著當時寫的日記
原來愛曾給我美麗心情
像一面深遂的風景
那深愛過他卻受傷的心
丰富了人生的記憶

＊只有曾天真給過的心
才了解等待中的甜蜜
也只有被辜負而長夜流過淚的心
才能明白這也是種運氣
＃讓他永遠　記得曾經有一個人
給過完完整整的愛情

那曾經愛著他的心情
有一股傻傻的勇氣
那深愛過他卻受傷的心
丰富了人生的記憶

Repeat ＊,＃,＊
當我安安心心的走在明天裡
有不後悔美麗的心情