Tuesday, May 1, 2012

到头来都一样

考试要到了,我其实根本没有心情读书叻。。
最近和朋友谈天,谈到这现实的社会男女。。
虽然很不想接受这事实,可是那是无法改变的
就有如男人总觉得他们越老越有价值的事实,而女人却是越老越贬值
男人喜欢貌美的女人,女人喜欢帅的有钱有才干的男人
城市男女们好悲哀。。
真爱很难得

在一篇张小娴的短文我领悟了一些不想领悟的真理

到头来都一样

       A小姐嫁给富商,商人重利轻别,婚后A小姐独来独往。苦闷的她每天出去买东西,用的穿的全是好货色,朋友们都羡慕她飞上枝头。儿子出生后她对儿子没有什么感情,因为儿子是跟一个她不爱的男人所生的。

       A小姐虽然寂寞,却不后悔,她说 :“你不爱他,才可以潇洒和幸福。”

      M小姐在众多有条件优秀的男人之中选择了一个条件普通的。她要嫁给他爱的男人,她说:“只有爱才可以跟她一起生活。”

      M小姐嫁给自己爱的男人,几年过去,痛苦却比快乐多。有一天,她发觉已经不爱他了。爱一个人总是难免对他太多要求,要求越多,失望越多,伤害了感情,当初的爱情渐渐消逝。

     然而,她说,下一次,他仍然会嫁给她爱的男人。
    
     也许,无论嫁给爱或不爱的男人,到头来还是会失去爱。



 根据英国的一项报道,有调查显示40% 的人不是和自己最爱的人结婚。。
难道这就是人生吗?
《那些年我们一起追过的女孩》 也不是因为感触了那 40 % 的人的心而暴红的吗?
 人生呀,总是让人留下许多遗憾。。
 如果是你,你会选择当M小姐或A小姐呢?
 在爱情和面包不能共存的时候,我想我还是会希望可以选择当M小姐,因为我不想留下遗憾。。
 然而,我的人生岂不也是不断地为我留下遗憾吗?
没关系吧?我需要学习接受这人生的遗憾。
真爱好像会因为时间的蹉跎而逐渐变质,消逝。。
 想一想自己曾经深爱的那个他,到头来在经不起考验的感情中消
成为了生命中的过客
剩下的只有那记不起的模糊回忆。。
人总是要往前看的,我学会了不为任何人停留
如果把人生比喻成一本书,
当你在50岁的时候,回首今天
或许你会愕然发现,那些过客只占据了那本书的几页而已

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

0o0

为什么人家的部落格总是那么开心
我却只有不开心的时候才会想到它??

不小心读到我的部落格的人肯定觉得我神经病
读不到两句就会转‘台’

本来是写了一篇长篇大论的‘分手记’
现在不想post 了 =.=

难忘情人节

相遇,相爱,了解,然后争吵,分开。。。
几乎是每段失败的感情必经过程
每一次的失败都好像带给我相同的感觉

这一次,或许不再让人看到我大哭
不再让人看到我特别伤心

就算是我提出的,我心里还是不好过
脸上还摆出没关系的样子
因为也没有多少个朋友知道发生了什么事
因为还有一丝期望他会做出一些举动来挽回这段感情。。

可是时间一秒一秒地过
仿佛把我们的感情从一张完整的纸被一丝一丝地撕开

失望。。还是失望
我不值得他为我妥协吗?
也许不够爱吧

自己也试着找理由然后抛开没用的自尊想着怎么样挽回。
却办不到。
大家都累了吧?
没有一方愿意妥协就等于为这段感情慢慢地画上句号。

又这么突然地结束了?
不舍得,可是也得舍得
不被珍惜,
感情再深也弥补不了不被重视的伤。

Monday, January 9, 2012

FACEBOOK

Every time when i was about to update myself about things happening among my friends, relatives or even to gepo about those acquaintances with FB, I always got shocked by the new updates

People are getting married, giving birth, changing partners like changing clothes..
Now I feel I'm so loser that I'm still studying when people are building their career..

Things happening around make me to realize that..I'm actually an Adult?
But I still not ready to accept how people at my age had already become mummy..
As for me, I would want to enjoy single life more (i mean single got bf but not married)..
And also to decide carefully who shall be my partner for life.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

This post is full of nonsense

I just came to realize that there are so many designs to choose for my blog page.
But I'm not the famous blogger...lazy to do all that

My recent life is all about working..working..and meeting bf..argghhh
Okay, i'm not complaining about meeting bf, but I have too little time for my friends
It's very contradicting as I want to meet my bf so badly everyday and spend all my time having breakfast lunch dinner with him but in this case I will not have time for my friends..even the closest ones. =(
It's not a good thing cos I don't think we should have only bf in life and forget about our friends

Another thing is, I'm currently working for the parents..I have no choice as they are too busy and they need me.
So, I will only start looking for job after CNY =(
People will tell me, no worries la, u have whole life to work
I think I have been slacking too much, dunno how to work for people ady

Overall, my life is... happy..
And I'm going to BANGKOK with my baby...YAY!!
But it's on next year September =.='''
What to do, Airasia cheap tix ma
Till then

Friday, August 5, 2011

I need colours

Honestly, I'm lack of colours in my wardrobe and maybe my life
Though i'm kinda happy and satisfied with my current life being an 'useless' person
I say this because my life currently is just like a housewife's life..erm maybe a more 贵妇 kind of housewife because I don't need to do housechores..lolz
My daily life is basically about picking up my brother from his school, bring him to makan and tuition then i will go and help out my parents in the office (not really help out actually, just do some basic accounts and walking around)
It's been almost a month since I came back from my wonderful Australia trip
I'm waiting for the company that i applied for job to give me response..
Frankly, I'm not very gan jeong..haha because I'm afraid of earning my own money, waking up early in the morning, and then i need to say bye to my heavenly lifestyle..
I have been asking my friend's opinion about what company I shd get into and which is better
bla bla bla
I have to admit that i'm a really princess-like person..
When I'm not even sure whether there's any kind employer out there wanna hire me, I already start worrying about the traffic jam, the working hours, the job and whether the company's well-known or not..
I think there's only one company will fulfill all my requirements and will hire me, lolx i mean my parent's company..
There's another funny thing when i ask my friend about job hunting
This friend of mine give me 5 options

1. become siu lai lai (rich housewife)
2. become normal housewife
3. Study ACCA
4. Work in the company that I have sent my resume to
5. Own business

Lolx right?
Obviously, he's telling me to choose the first one when I tell him I want high salary job and fun + easy job..
So i told him first one requires a rich husband which I'm not the fortune teller and I dunno about my future..eventhough i used to wish to be one, but i actually dun wan to be a dumb woman and get dumped by husband and lose everything..so I think i nid to have my own career
So it's either third or fourth choice ...
Hmmm

Okay, back to my 'i need colours' topic
My bf has been complaining about my fashion sense and i just came to realize that yea I do have a bad fashion sense..okay it's not too late right
However, firstly, these days i'm a jobless person and I dun wan to get allowance from my parents..
So, I'm totally broke and I do not have $$$$$$$..
I cannot touch my savings..because those are my 姑婆本lolx just kidding
I'm spending way too much than last time and everytime when I use my debit card to swipe my lovely clothes back , I din really care about the money left in my bank account until recently i decided I need a long break out of shopping..
Secondly, I'm fat
Seriously..I need to blame my bf because he brings me to go for nice food EVERYDAY
I wont be surprised if one day he wanna dump me because i'm too fat..lol
Besides that, I have had a long break since the last time i attend my yoga class and heading to the gym with my brother..
OMFG..
I have gained effing 4kgs..
nightmares will be coming soon if i dun start changing my wardrobe and most importantly to drive away my 水桶腰 & 象腿..i mean my beer belly and elephant-liked thigh

So I have to start thinking of a way to solve my problem..
Enuff crapping...
Sorry, I'm just too free while waiting for my mafan bf to come back from work..
chaos


Friday, May 6, 2011

Old friends

Lately, many of my good friends find me for catching up session
I feel that friends do not have to hang out together too often to become good friends
Sometimes a simple 'what's app', 'fb msg' or a simple catching up session in mamak make me feel warm and I know I still have you as my good friends to share stories about our recent life
I'm so lucky and grateful to have friends that never failed to find me and tell me that they miss me
I'm so sorry that I never take the initiative to find you all....
But I seriously feel so happy and warm with your simple 'hello, how have you been?'
=)

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从不喜欢一个人到爱上那个人的感觉真奇妙
真的就想这样定下来
因为安定的生活很好

Thursday, May 5, 2011

I feel old

My birthday is coming in less than a month
And I will be officially 22 =(
I feel old seriously
However, I feel I'm having a good life
Feel so contented with my life now
I have good family
Good friends
I have everything that I want
Am appreciating my happy life before I'm stepping into the real world
Oh gosh, I feel so excited yet curious about my future
Hmmm...

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

阶段

忽然发現人在不同的阶段所要的幸福是不一样的
曾经把爱幻想得很美
也曾经为爱而委屈配合别人,迷失了自己
从前总在寻找自己很爱的人
现在才愕然发现
被爱比较幸福

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

My girl friends

Sometimes I just feel I'm so lucky to have so many girl friends
Because people always claim that girls cannot really stay too close to each other or else there will be many conflicts between them..
I'm glad that I'm still living peacefully with my babes <3
Although some of them are staying at another country, we can still chat and gossip for hours a day ^^







Monday, December 20, 2010

It's December already

I'm just backed from a yum cha session with the usual gang
We were talking about some working stuff and adult stuff
Suddenly I feel like ' Hey I have to be more matured already'
I used to always say' I feel like I'm more grown up day by day'

But at this time, the end of the year again..I think I shouldn't say this
Instead I should start planning for my future and start doing something
Not just by sitting there and say 'Yeah, I feel I'm grown up' but continue doing stupid things
Such as wasting time on too much entertainment

Yea, I really do admit that I have too much entertainment
Ever since the beginning of 2009, and now the end of 2010..
I have too much parties, outings, trips, 'chilling session'.......
It's time to spend some time thinking of how to earn money?
Thinking of career?
Arrgghh

How I wish my life stays here, you know
Because I do not have to think so much
Basically my life now is about waiting for friends to call me : Princess, let's go bla bla bla
And then I will just go..
Outings outings and outings
PArties parties parties

OR I can simply 'con' my mum ' Mii, this Burberry bag is so nice, can i 'borrow' money from you?
Then I bought the bag...and return only some of the money
I'm a bad daughter =(

I was sicked a couple of days ago and my dad said ' Wow, you are at home today, I guess the only day that you will stay at home is when you fall sick huh?'
Felt ashamed and guilty actually because what he said was quite true

I should be grateful that I have life like this huh?
I even have time to day dream everyday..
This is what my friends told me ' Puiyee, I think your 'daydreaming' disease is getting worse already'
Yea they are right, I can always sit there and think NOTHING

Omg, I should really change this!!!
2011 is arriving in less than 2 weeks........
Anw, 2010 was not a bad year nor a very good year
2011????
Hmm, I don't want to think too much
At this time, what is more crucial is to change my lifestyle and attitude towards life
Wake up Princess!

Thursday, December 2, 2010

In deep shit mood

In bad mood because of someone!

Definitely not the one in your mind..unless you know my stories

=(

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Time passes so fast



I didn't realize that time passes so fast until I wished both of my jimui- Kahyan and Shuwen Happy Birthday again =)
I'm glad that we are still so close =) Not easy to have truthful friendship and I take them as my real close friends. It's hard though to have friendship forever especially when people grow up, they change.
I have changed a lot too.
Haha today Wei Sern said :" It seems that you have different thinking and mature liao"
Was so happy about that =)
I'm glad that ppl finally don't take me as the innocent xiao mei mei already

Anw,this post is about time passes so fast. So back to the topic.
0711, it's my ji muis birthday. I will never forget this special day.
At the same time, it used to be a 'special' day for me too.
Two years ago, 0711 was a nightmare for me
One year ago, I was still living in the shadow
After two years, today, I have FINALLY walked out from the shadow....
I have come so far but there are more infront..
How is it going to be??
I'm glad that life is still good
^^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY my darlings <3 you both so much




Thursday, October 28, 2010

Hmmm

Wing : To like a person and to like a person to be enough to get together are different
Hmmmm
I think I know..
And timing is important too..
=(

Monday, October 18, 2010

Day Dreaming

I dunno why sometimes I can just sit and do nothing for hours
Pure thinking or dreaming
-.-
Exams is coming
Kill me pls

Friday, October 15, 2010

-_-

There's always a little pain behind every 'It's OK'
I think I'm too used to keeping things to myself
When I don't say anything, it doesn't mean that I'm not hurt or I don't feel anything
But I can only blame myself for not telling people how I feel and what I want
It has always been like that for my entire life
I'm stupid, can't help myself.

Saturday, October 2, 2010

=.=

有时真的很难找到一个了解你的人
或者愿意了解你的人
尤其是在你也不了解自己的时候
无奈

Sunday, September 19, 2010

这样也好

你也曾和我一样有过这种感觉?
害怕失去所以不敢拥有的感觉?
曾经拥有得那么多
后来却也失去那么多
所以当你害怕失去时
处在似有似无的状态会不会好一点?

贪心的想拥有更多
但却不愿意因而失去现在所拥有的一点点
一点点的感觉很好
平静的生活真好
不再怀念从前也不再对自己的未来幻想太多
这样也好
=)

Monday, September 13, 2010

Stressssssss

I find that reading other ppl's blog is fun =)
Part of it because I'm gepo..okay this one I know you know everybody knows
After reading other ppl's blog i feel my blog is full of rubbish
That is why i dun promote my blog
awful =.=
I just can't start doing my assignment
2000 words and I have only about one and a half day to do it..holly shit
Still trying to fb fb fb blogging blogging and find some shit to do to escape from it..
And now it's time to start
I guess?

Sunday, September 12, 2010

幸福

我有一个很奇怪的想法。。
曾经我幸福到一个程度,幸福到我怀疑为什么天对我那么好
然后没多久我碰钉了
从天堂掉落到地狱
那是在一夜间发生的事。

我记得幸福的日子似长似短
它维持了一年十一个月七天
对,我还记得。
过后我用了很长的时间试着让自己幸福起来
好像再也找不回那真正的感觉

我有一个很奇怪的想法。。
我觉得天不会让我们永远地快乐
人生必须有甜酸苦辣
给了你那么多,也就要付出那么多。

一年十一个月零七天,
我曾经幸福了那么久
其实后来也好像不幸福了快要一年十一个月了吧?
下个月的第七天应该是我不幸福的结束
幸福的开始

哈哈,我知道我很白痴
没关系
因为我真的相信天不会让你永远快乐
也不会让你永远的活在悲痛中
不是吗?=)